Well, actually, yes.

Stupid rabbit.

Was it Thoreau who stated "most men lead lives of quiet desperation"? I wish I could say that I spent every minute outside of Maine pining for the state and planning my return. But that wouldn't be true (not that I sometimes didn't focus on returning). Dollar signs floated in my head, and professional opportunities.

I've always felt that Maine abandons its youth who move away. It never occurred to me that perhaps Mainers remaining here (at least some of them) might also feel abandoned.

They say that the best part of being with loved ones is that you really never have to say you're sorry. Without being too sentimental, in some ways Maine is  like a big family (I see it that way) and when one of us is hurting we all hurt.

I don't like politicians that overuse public appearances, including ribbon-cuttings, to get their photo in the paper. Is the Governor the most qualified person in the state to cut a ribbon? Does it take a special skill? Does it foster long-standing confidence in other people? Does it solve problems?

When my friend made his statement (about my expecting to be welcomed back) I changed directions. What do you do when your best isn't good enough? What do you do when your dreams don't come true?

All that you can do is say, I'm sorry.

Alex Hammer is a candidate for Governor residing in Bangor. The campaign's website is www.hammer2006.politicalgateway.com